May

So, it's May 1st. My mommy & fam are moving to Moraga on Thursday...that's like less than 48hrs away. I'm SO sad...It's all sort of hitting me at once. I moved out of the house on Sunday, and on Thursday my mom's leaving. All of this is taking a toll on me, and it showed in today's session. I try to never really show any signs of having a hard time, but today my "mask" fell off.   We started with arm warm-ups and then got my heartrate up with some punches. Nicole held the big blue bouncy ball out in front of me, and I punched vigorously. Once my heart was racing, Nicole busted out the 5ft-long pole, and we did "push-ups" and "pull-ups." Nicole says I'm getting too strong! heehee:)!   Luckily I didn't cause Nicole serious pain during our push/pull-up session, but Nicole had me do bicep curls so she could take a breather.;) While I was doing my bicep curls, I broke down. I started crying and told Nicole about how all of this moving-buisness is scarin' the crap outta me. I cried about how I'm so ready to be completely independent...having caregivers around me 7 days a week, can be a real test of patience. Nicole listened to my rambling and said what was needed when I stopped to breathe.   After my short little episode of tears, I had a go at the TRX. With my wheelchair leaned back and parked directly underneath the TRX, I grabbed onto the handles and pulledd my chest up. I did one "set" with my palms turned away from my face and elbows out, and another "set" with mythe point where I can do it without palms facing in towards eachother and elbows in.        Last but not least, Nicole transferred me onto the recumbandt bicycle. You can easily see the remarkable improvement I have made on the bike. It's like each time I get on the bike and ask my legs to pedal, they are able to remember more and more each time. It's hard as hell, but deffinitely encouraging! Pedaling backwards is deffinitely easier for me (compared to pedaling forwards), and I have gotten to point where I basically need no assistance! Pedaling forwards is more difficult cuz my left knee sorta locks straight, and I haven't figured out how to push with just my right leg...confusing schtuff, I know!   So, our session ends and I'm on my way out the door, when Nicole decides to give me one last "punch." She grabbed my right hand, and gave it a quick, painful rubdown.........gotta love Nicole!